As a child I was one with faith.  I never questioned my faith and I had complete happiness.  As i grew with each day, experiencing loss and joy, I lost a part of myself.  The person I was still exist in the soul, but became dominated by an idealist and empathetic person.  I question my faith, but do not doubt it.  There are so many questions that remain unanswered; pain inflicted without meaning.  I have read books on faith, examined my soul in depth, and have reached a conclusion: I will achieve ultimate happiness if I surrender to God and accept my faith, without any questions.  It is harder than appears, because I do not know how to surrender myself to God, I'm still unprepared, I'm not ready.  Maybe in the future, when I least expect it, my spiritual path will go full circle; maybe a light-bulb will go on and put the pieces together and faith will be within me, and endure forever.

Life-the suffering and joy that comes with it.  I find it hard at times to seize the moment, to love life for what it is, and to be thankful of the present.  I appreciate all that is given to me, particularly my family, but i would love to live in the moment and be thankful for it.

We all want to be a better person than we are-we want positive change, we aim to improve, although our actions are not always translated as we desire.  Old habits, attitudes, and beliefs are hard to break, to replace, or to become detached from. I personally have a lot of habits I would like to change(biting my nails...), along with my personality(I would like to become more confident and less nervous).  In order to bring change in others or society, we must begin by analyzing ourselves and make a postive change.

But for some reason I can’t allow myself to know truth faith. I believe every person should have faith, it doesn’t matter in what you believe as long as you believe in something, or in which higher power you believe in, for that is what makes us connected. Faith I hold to be the hardest thing to sustain; for I hold true that we are all born with a sense of faith but as each day passes, as we age, we experience suffering which causes the individual to question their faith. It is extremely difficult to hold onto one’s faith and mold oneself into it, but I think that this is what makes faith even more beautiful; the desire to have a perfect soul, the right to allow one to be happy and through faith it becomes possible